Posts tagged ‘my heart’

May 4th, 2013

Polling.



Polling.

April 30th, 2013

Every night I start to cry because she’s not here and then I cry because I’m crying…

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Every night I start to cry because she’s not here and then I cry because I’m crying and she’s not here and I’m so sad. Everything is empty, I come home and feel like a hollow clown.

April 28th, 2013

Fritz with Monster’s ashes, he curled up with them.



Fritz with Monster’s ashes, he curled up with them.

April 27th, 2013

Just kissed her for the last time and last time her face was wet with my tears.

Just kissed her for the last time and last time her face was wet with my tears.

April 27th, 2013

Baby Monster with her best friend, baby Barrycat, in my…



Baby Monster with her best friend, baby Barrycat, in my disgusting chair. He was 3 years younger than her but she was so small and he was so big that he outgrew her almost immediately.

When he died, very young (he was only two), she mourned, it was heartbreaking, I was mourning too, but how to comfort a cat? She would look for him all over the apartment crying, she lost weight, she licked her fur off, she needed to be held all the time. I had to give her kitty antidepressants, which was obviously pretty ridiculous but you will do whatever when you see so much pain. They kept telling me to get another friend for her but I wouldn’t, I didnt ever want to go through that again, but finally I did. We named him Fritz Newman, and he is great comfort.

April 27th, 2013

I do a lot better with animals than I do with people.

I do a lot better with animals than I do with people.

April 26th, 2013

She really leaned on Fritz.



She really leaned on Fritz.

April 26th, 2013

She was the snuggliest.









She was the snuggliest.

April 25th, 2013

I’m so grateful and happy now about breaking my leg. Even…



I’m so grateful and happy now about breaking my leg. Even though it was a rough five months for me, it was a great five months for Monster. Me having a job was not her favorite thing but for that period, she got so much time with me, we were on the couch together practically 24-7. I couldn’t wish for a better nurse or companion. I look back now and feel totally like they were the best five months.

April 24th, 2013

When I lay down to cry Fritz climbed up to lay on top of me,…



When I lay down to cry Fritz climbed up to lay on top of me, right over my heart like Monster used to. He’s never done that before. I don’t think he’d ever seen tears up close before either; he watched carefully and touched my wet cheek with his paw.